Wednesday, December 31, 2008

The big question

This evening Bee was eating a snack of goldfish crackers and periodically dropping one on the floor for Max.  She likes for him to come running and gobble up whatever stray bit of food she has cast his way.

Once I realized she was doing this, I told her, "'Please do not drop any more crackers on the floor."  

Her response was to turn and look at me with her guileless blue eyes and ask, "Why?"

Why, indeed?

I suspect that 2009 will be the year of the Why.

Happy New Year!


Tuesday, December 30, 2008

On my radar

Over the past two years I have come to believe that there is a special frequency that allows mothers to hear their children's voices anywhere, regardless of the level of surrounding noise. The Mommy frequency causes me to snap my attention to Bee like a needle on a compass.

Imagine my surprise this evening when I was walking home from work and heard Bee's voice saying, "Mom-mee!" clear across a four lane road. 

In an instant, I asked myself, "Where is my daughter's voice coming from and how could she possibly be so loud?" 

My head whipped around so quickly that my eyes struggled to catch up. I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw David, Max, and Bee (ensconced in her stroller and many layers as it is freezing here) standing at the entrance to the peasant museum.  They had walked over in the hopes of catching my sister on her way back to our apartment.  The earlier plan was for the three of them to go together but evidently Bee threw a tantrum about wearing snow pants, which are really not an option when it is 20 degrees Fahrenheit outside.   They found me instead.  

I don't know where Bee's powers of elocution come from. But she certainly caught my attention. 

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Imagination

Watching Bee's imagination unfold was one of the biggest gifts I received this past holiday season. Her games have become more and more elaborate. Her sense of timing and humor has developed.  Sometimes I have to stop and remind myself that he is only two years old, not a miniature person with whom I can reason:

One of her favorite games, at present, is setting up a church in her play area. She lines up all her stuffed animals on chairs, admonishes them to be quiet, and says a few prayers.  I almost cried the first time I realized what she was doing.  It makes the stress of going to Romanian mass with the shushing grannies worthwhile.




She also loves to iron, a trait not inherited from either of her parents.  If only she were old enough the wield the real thing, David would always have a fresh shirt.




Auto repair comes naturally.



One of the saddest, and at the same time more joyful, parts of this year has been watching Bee's babyhood and toddlerhood come to an end.  My little squidgy baby, who for the first year of life was permanently attached to either David or I, can now initiate negotiations about why she ought to have a second glass of juice or a cookie after dinner.  

Bee's transformation into a sparkling, wonderful preschooler makes me indescribably proud, yet at the same time, a bit sad.  The thread connecting Bee and I grows longer as she grows into her own self.  Hopefully, it grows stronger with the passing years as well. 



Saturday, December 27, 2008

Wishing you


a warm holiday season!

Friday, December 26, 2008

Monday, December 22, 2008

Happiness is

--Watching David teach my father to play Lego Star Wars, heads bent together over the remote control.  Their running commentary is hilarious, but in a "you gotta be there" kind of way.  

--Bee's impromptu concert of the two Christmas carols she knows, We Three Kings and Silent Night, performed with myriad interpretation, and punctuated by excessive twirling and arm waving. (Is that how I dance? Who exactly is she imitating?)

--Baking Toll House chocolate chip cookies with my Mom, and decorated them by putting one Christmas M&M in the center of each one.

--Knowing my little sister arrives tomorrow night.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

At last!

It has been a long day, but I will sleep well and happy tonight knowing that both my Mom and Dad are here.

I am lucky to have such wonderful parents whose company I enjoy so much.  I am even luckier that they are willing to fly across the Atlantic ocean to the wilds of Eastern Europe to come visit me (well, really Bee, but me too) and bring me all the baking supplies I have been missing (light brown sugar, crisco, mace).  

With my sister's arrival on the 23rd, it really will be home for the holidays.  

Home is where the people you love are all together.  

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Skim chai with a side of goat

So my colleague was right, as Christmas approaches, baby goats are turning up everywhere.

As we were enjoying our respective chai latte, espresso, and juice at Starbucks this morning, a Roma woman walked in carrying a very young goat.  She definitely wasn't there to buy coffee; she was going to carry the goat from table to table and exchange petting the goat for a little extra cash.

One of the Starbucks employees sprung into action, hustling the lady and her goat back outside.  I quite agree with his decision. But you know, as she went out through the door, I saw him slip her a little cash.  He didn't want to lose his job, but neither did he want to be cursed for the coming year!

Friday, December 19, 2008

Four Strangers

Just a little while ago, while I was washing dishes, the doorbell rang.

I answered it, assuming it was my downstairs neighbor come to borrow the next book in the Robert Jordan series.  Instead, it was four clean cut young men, standing in a row.

"Mormons!" I immediately thought to myself.  However, these boys were sans name tags and their usual little black book.  

"Burglers!" was my next thought, but I quickly dismissed it.  Burglers do not usually ring the doorbell and wear dorky matching windbreakers.

Seeing my obvious confusion, they explained.  We are carolers and have come to sing for you.

Carolers!  Caroling and carol singing is an important Christmas tradition in this country, centuries old. 

My neighbors had told me that they usually didn't have carolers in our apartment building as the front door is usually locked.  These ones must have slipped in somehow.

I went and found Bee and David so they could enjoy the music.  Max stood completely still, very unlike his usual boisterous self. (He was so confused about the "singing people", you could positively see the wheels turning in his Labrador brain, struggling to understand the why in this new strange example of human behavior.)

The young men sang three songs, each beautiful and very well harmonized. Their voices echoed in the stairwell, lending an ethereal air to the performance.  

In return, we gave them a package of homemade gingerbread men, and a small sum of money, as is the tradition here.  

It will be a Merry Christmas indeed.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Stuck

I am supposed to make chocolate cupcakes for tomorrow's Christmas party.
I need 2/3 cup cocoa powder.
I have 1/3 cup.
David is out.
Bee is asleep.  
Max is not a good shopper.
My next door neighbor is not the type of person I can borrow from.
The internet is not helping.
I am stuck.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Silver Bells

It's Christmas time in the city.

The city built an ice skating rink in the park! I passed by on my way home and saw a whole group of adorable children learning to skate.  They were all wearing reindeer antlers for good measure. I think they were standard issue, along with the skates.

The park itself is bedecked with twinkling Christmas lights: long icicles sparkling from the trees and snowflakes and gold stars shining on lampposts. 

At the entrance to the park there is lighted display including trees, santa, a large family of polar bears, with some penguins strewn about for good measure. (Perhaps it's a predator versus prey set-up.  Or maybe Santa is enforcing peace on earth.) In short, it's several thousand watts of tackiness--but endearingly so. 

The locals love photographing the display. I might just take my camera over tomorrow. I know a certain two year old who would go wild with excitement over a glowing Santa.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Good to be

home.  

After a long and difficult day at work, David and I were so happy to come home to our smiling daughter, who greeted us by proudly singing Christmas carols to us in a wild Eastern European language.

"Come on, Mommy, sing!" she ordered.

I mumbled along with her.  There is nothing more confusing than a toddler singing a foreign song in a foreign language. 

Fortunately, after a minute or so of pretending to know the words, I was able to switch her over to a lively rendition of We Three Kings.  That's a carol with oomph.  It's Bee's favorite, mainly because she can act out the verses with her wooden creche.  

I can't remember ever enjoying the Christmas season more, at least not since I was a little child myself.  Seeing the brilliance in Bee's eyes as she reads a nativity story or describes how Santa will bring her presents Christmas morning is precious indeed.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Leftovers

Some meals are always better the next day.  

Last night David made lasagna with bechamel sauce, spinach, and mushrooms.  It was delicious, but even better tonight--hardly any dishes!

We bought genuine Italian lasagna noodles; the proof is in the instructions on the box.  I have transcribed them exactly, for full effect:

"COOKING INSTRUCTION: First time will be prepared the bechamel and bolognese sauces.  Spread some gravy and bechamel on the buttered bottom of baking-tin.  Put dry lasagne one by one putting between them gravy, bechamel and parmesan inside the buttered baking-tin, carrefully covering the last one with a good quantity of parmesan and few pieces of butter.  Then cover the baking-tin with an aluminum foil.  Bake at 180 C for about 20 minutes, remove the foil and bake it for another 10 minutes."

I loved the alliteration of "bechamel" and "buttered bottom".  True poetry, indeed.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Home

This has turned into a very quiet, atypical Saturday for me.  Usually all three of us are hustling around the city, with only a short break at home for Bee's nap.  

We are supposed to be attending a children's Christmas party this afternoon, but had to break off our plans due to Bee suddenly coming down with an eye infection.  I'm relieved, actually.  Not about Bee's eye (she seems to be feeling okay but has a violent aversion to the antibiotic eye drops)--I'm relieved that we finally have been forced to spend the day at home. 

David made sweet potato bread for breakfast.  It was supposed to be pumpkin, but we had frozen sweet potato puree in our freezer. It turned out very light and flavorful.  Afterward, I baked bread for tonight's sandwiches. (There was fresh spinach at the market on Friday, a real find, and I am going to make veggie melts tonight and spinach lasagna tomorrow.)  

Now Bee is napping and I mixed up a batch of gingerbread cookie dough.  David bought me a giant gingerbread man cookie cutter at the Munich Christmas market that I can't wait to try out.  Bee goes a little crazy around rolling pins and cookie dough, so I might wait to cut them out tonight after she has gone to bed. 

Re-reading this post, it seems nothing more than a list of what I did today, but really, what I have been thinking about is how much I like the season of Advent.  More than Lent and even a tiny bit more that Christmas itself.  It's a time for preparation--in a physical and spiritual sense: 

I've been cleaning out closets and organizing my cabinets; preparing for the arrivals of my parents, sister and her boyfriend; buying extra groceries in the anticipation of a full house for Christmas; decorating my house for the holidays; and wrapping a few presents each night.  

At the same time, we have been teaching Bee about the meaning of Christmas; reading stories about a baby born in a cold manger; lighting the candles on our Advent wreath; and savoring the end of a wonderful year.  

 Although Advent may be a time of expectation--He is already here.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Lucky me

I was walking to the fruit and vegetable market during my lunch hour and was surprised to turn a corner and see a Roma family with a baby goat.  

I haven't ever encountered a baby goat before, especially not on a busy city sidewalk, and I was surprised at how cute they are.  He, or she, was small, white, and clever looking, with delicate features and wearing a seasonal red bow around its neck.  The family was feeding it milk from a bottle, and the kid was drinking with the enthusiasm of the newly born.  

As I continued on, I started wondering why it was there and decided that goat meat stew must be a traditional Eastern European Christmas dish.  That poor little guy was on his way to be roasted in some granny's oven, with carrots and onions on the side.  

Upon returning to the office, I mentioned the goat to my colleague and my concern for its imminent demise.  He was confused at first, but then laughed saying, "It is our Christmas tradition.  If you touch a young, white goat it brings you good luck for the coming year.  In just a week or so, you'll see them everywhere."

I envisioned herds of kids trotting down the main streets of the capital and suppressed a laugh.

My colleague added, "Here in the city, though, if you pet the goat, you have to give the owner some money." 

"Capitalism abounds!" I thought cynically to myself.  (But next time, I might just pay to pet one.)



Thursday, December 11, 2008

To top it all off

The temperature has finally dropped, and the icy air complements the thousands of Christmas lights the city has put up on every main boulevard. It's hat, scarf, and gloves cold--but fortunately not thermal underwear cold.  Just right for the Christmas season. 

With the arrival of cold weather, it seems like fur hats have sprung up on the heads of every third resident. They are alternately towering, moth-eaten, and glorious.  

I saw one lady today wearing a fur hat that looked like an attacking raccoon.  I didn't know whether I should have attempted to wrench it away before it ate her alive or steered clear, lest it leap onto my head.  Either way, I'm glad I've had my rabies vaccinations. 

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Flying toward Bethlehem to be born

David and I are trying to talk a lot about Baby Jesus, Mary, and Joseph around Bee so she learns about the true significance of Christmas.  However, if you ask her, she'll tell you that a Christmas means a "Miss-miss tree with presents." (And for a child, I suppose that is inevitably the main event.  I know it was for me.)  

Our saving grace is that Bee loves  playing with her nativity set.  She lines up all the wooden figures and then carries them off to:


her toy airplane.  Yep, that's Joseph doing aerobatics on the wing.  No need for the donkey this year.  

I think I will overlook the possibly sacrilegious connotations and see it as an act of love on Bee's part.  After all, her Christmas storybooks all describe Mary and Joseph traveling very far and feeling very tired, I think she decided to intervene with some newer, faster technology.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

If you love dogs

and you don't want to bawl your eyes out, 
don't read "The Art of Racing in the Rain."  

Ever.

Don't even read the dust jacket.  

You don't want to know how much your dog loved you.

You'll miss them that much more.





Monday, December 8, 2008

Tooth and claw

Unfortunately, a large gang of wild dogs has moved into our neighborhood.  Our temporary apartment, where we stayed for the first three months, had a similar problem, with packs of aggressive neighborhood dogs chasing after us and trying to bite Max.  However, up until about a week ago, the parks next to our apartment had remained blissfully dog-free.  

This was unusual, because the city where I live has a major wild dog problem. They are called "vagabond dogs" or "community dogs." By some estimates, there are several hundred thousand wild dogs in the city.  I believe it.  The problem stems from several decades ago when the communist dictator at the time tore down vast portions of the city, replacing houses with apartment blocs.  Dogs were not allowed in the new apartments. Not knowing what else to do, their owners released them into the streets.  The problem has grown exponentially since.  

The city does not allow for euthanasia for stray dogs. Any that are picked up are possibly spayed or neutered, tagged in the ear, and released into the area where they were found. Seriously.  The public sentiment is that it would be cruel to kill them.  In my opinion, a brutal life of three or so years, scavenging trash cans for food only to be hit by a car and die is even crueler.  There are no adequate shelter facilities.  

Alone in an urban environment, the dogs band together and form packs.  They are territorial and become very agitated when Max and I encroach upon their perceived territory.  I can deal with three or four stray dogs (shouting or threatening to kick them is usually enough to scare them off, if need be.)  But ten or so is dangerous.  

This morning I went out jogging with Max. I knew where the group has been generally sleeping, so I took a wide berth around the park. It wasn't wide enough.  The sentry dog (one dog stands watch while the others sleep) raised the alarm. They all began to wake up, barking angrily. I ran across the road, and fortunately they didn't follow.  It's really hard to predict where they will be.

Max was pretty unconcerned and set about doing his morning business. I was picking up after him, thinking how I was probably the only person in the whole city who bothers to do so.  Max bounds ahead and lunges at something on the ground.  Max is not known for his discerning palate, but I was worried he was going to choke on a bone or something, so I reached into his mouth.  Bad choice.  I will not go into any additional detail, only to add that my theory about people picking up after their dogs was proved 100% correct.  It was also raining.  

Some days it's hard to live here.  

Sunday, December 7, 2008

6 years

5 trips to Munich
4 different countries lived in
4 pairs of sunglasses (majority of them lost)
3 vacations in the Outer Banks
2 cars
2 new languages
1 cliff jumping experience 
1 labrador retriever 
1 beautiful daughter 
1, as they say here, "house of stone"

(Things too numerous to count: international flights, diapers, pizzas, and kisses.)

Happy Anniversary, honey.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Caught in the act




She takes after her mama.


Friday, December 5, 2008

"Honey, I hope you don't mind

but I invited an office contact to our house for dinner tonight."

"Tonight? As in right after work, when I was planning to use up the leftovers in the fridge and wear my pajamas and lie like a slug on the couch after Bee goes to bed?"

"Yes, tonight."

Sigh.  The actual conversation with David wasn't quite along these lines. 

I had a surprise dinner guest tonight.  He seemed to enjoy himself because he stayed until 11pm.  I don't think he has quite as strict a bedtime as we do.  It was a bit stressful planning at the very last minute, but, David was right, he was really nice, and I enjoyed talking with another American expat (albeit one who is living in fabulous London.)

Here's what you make for a last minute dinner party:

Menu--
Appetizers: Cheese and crackers, olives, sun dried tomatoes, and pickled red peppers.  (The guys had martinis.)
Dinner: Penne a la vodka (vodka, cream, canned crushed tomatoes, boil noodles, boil!), salad (greens in a bag, chopped tomato, pine nuts, go!), peas (microwave with butter, quick!), and garlic bread (no exhortations needed, garlic bread is always easy.)
Dessert: Betty Crocker's snack cake, served warm with vanilla ice cream (it's the only cake you can whip up in less than ten minute's time.)

Result--good food, interesting conversation, a very messy kitchen.  I am surprised there was not pasta stuck to the ceiling.

Now it is time for bed.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Peace is

a quiet flock of crows overhead, commuting home to their evening roost.  Technically, the correct term for a flock of crows is a murder of crows, but I have always felt that it is an unfair designation.  

I have noticed that when crows fly together in a large group, they do not caw loudly, as one might expect.  Instead, they emit a sort of raspy chirp, which I suppose serves as chit chat among bird friends.  Other than those few quiet sounds, they glide silently, black wings stark against the winter sky.  

The crow has been my favorite animal for a long time.  It is not the fastest or most beautiful of birds. However, its perseverance and ingenuity sets it part from most other species.  Where a more delicate animal might die, scrappy crows thrive in the face of adversity.  They are stubborn, like me.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Cliche

As David and I were walking home through the park tonight a thick mist rose up from the ground and swirled around us.  It was as thick as a veil, and blurred everything in the distance.  

The setting sun in the west turned the trees into eerie black silhouettes. 

It looked . . . like a place where vampires might lurk. 

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Cultural (mis)communication

I am very proud of myself for not shrieking at Bee's babysitter today when she apologized for eating so many (only three so not so many, really) chocolates from the box I had brought from Germany.  

She was very confused when I explained that the chocolates she had been eating were from my Advent calendar and you're (I'm) only supposed to only eat one per day.  "One per day?" she asked.

"Yes, one per day. You open one per day and count down to Christmas."

In my head I screeched silently, "And it's MINE!"  

Keeping in the Christmas spirit, I smiled and said it was absolutely no problem, but to please not eat any more.  

However, as soon as she left I hid it the calendar in my room, lest she be tempted tomorrow to eat all the way to Christmas eve.  

I'm an unrepentant chocolate Grinch.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Landed

Oh I should really go to bed right now because work is going to be brutal tomorrow after a weekend of vacationing and a day of travel.  

Flying alone is occasionally boring, but usually relaxing--despite the cramped quarters in economy class, you can usually read a stack of mindless magazines and catch the in-flight movie. 

Traveling with a toddler is maniacal.  Plus, toddlers have so much more luggage than adults--the extra changes of clothes, the diapers, the snacks, the toys, the extra toys for when the first set gets boring and you're mid-flight, the storybooks, the medicines for every possible ailment (because do you really want to be finding tylenol in a foreign country at 1 am?), the stroller. . . so you are entertaining your child while dragging the equivalent of an ox cart behind you. 

Tonight was Bee's 10th international flight within a two month time period and we are done, done, done, with flying for the foreseeable future.  Tonight our plane didn't turn around mid-flight and head back (good) but it did land in some of the thickest fog I have ever seen in my entire life (questionable judgement on the part of the airport authorities, but hey, this is Eastern Europe after all).  

But now we're home, David and I. The luggage is piled up in the hall and I think it is going to stay that way until tomorrow night.  I want to go get in bed with a magazine and have a bit of a pout--it's always hard to leave Munich.  

I am starting to think that Munich is more like Disney World than an actual city.  The buildings are so perfect they could be made from gingerbread.  They are iced with Christmas garlands and twinkling lights.  Christmas displays brighten every shop window.  One block from my sister's apartment is a chocolate shop that rivals Willie Wonka.  The city is so sweet I want to eat it up.  But there's no need, because every neighborhood has its own bakery with pastries the size of pie plates and fresh pretzels.  Sigh.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Surreal

Well I am writing this post sitting in my little sister's apartment in Munich, having kicked her and her boyfriend out for the night. We're staying at their place for the weekend, enjoying the traditional Christmas market and pre-Christmas festivities. They have very generously relocated to her boyfriend's parent's apartment.

The apartment is a tiny jewel box in the heart of the city. It's my little sister's miniature castle. The house is organized to a degree that would make Martha Stewart write an article on how less truly is more. It makes me want to throw away half my possessions and start over.

My sister has a knack for selecting decorative objects and then displaying them in a way that is unique, yet classic. My decorating style, on the other hand, consists of fighting against the constantly rising tide of children's toys and putting objects out of Bee's ever inquisitive and increasingly proprietorial grasp.

This is a long holiday weekend for David and I. I am trying to relax after the gourmet mania and fighting off the stomach flu that defined this year's Thanksgiving. I was thankful that I was well enough to cook all the dishes I was assigned for Thanksgiving. I was thankful that I didn't actually get sick after nibbling at Thanksgiving dinner, as opposed to just feeling sick. Other than that, I wasn't thankful for much else. I was finally feeling better most of the day today but now my stomach is starting to feel wobbly. I think it's time for bed.

Tomorrow we will be attending mass at my favorite church, more city strolling, Christmas-marketing, and hopefully eating.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Princess




Here is one of my favorite pictures from October.  In it, Miss Bee is headed home from her first birthday party, a princess party that she still talks about almost two months later.  

You can see the wound up excitement in her step-- a combination of too much cake, meeting a princess who made balloon animals, and a pinata (you break something and get presents instead of time out!)  Basically the parents covered every possible party trick with the exception of "pin the tail on the donkey."  I could never compete with them.

Bee arrived at the party wearing her Snow White halloween costume but wanted to take it off after a few minutes as it was impeding her play.  The cape however, she loved.  She thinks it's her princess cape, but to me, she looks like a mini Mighty Mouse.  My little superhero is growing up much too fast for my liking.

Monday, November 24, 2008

It's beginning to look a lot like


Thanksgiving!  

Okay, well, Christmas isn't here just yet, much to my chagrin.  I love Christmas and start thinking about it every, oh, August or so. Growing up, my father had to restrain me from playing holiday music in October.  "No Christmas music until after Thanksgiving!" he would declare. 

It was, and still is, a guilty pleasure of mine to listen to Handel's "Messiah" long before the holiday decorations have begun to appear in shop windows and on the outside of buildings.  My father may be several thousand miles away, but I still listen surreptitiously, headphones on. 

Handel's Messiah is beautiful. Most people don't realize there is a lot more to it than the Hallelujah chorus.  In my opinion, there is no better way to begin a dreary work day than with the soul stirring refrain in the section "For Unto Us a Child is Born."   I am riding on the overheated metro, praying Isaiah 9:6 along with the chorus.  A full orchestra (London Symphony) adds the exclamation points to "Wonderful!" "Counselor!"  Arpeggios soar toward the heavens.  The violins sing on the E string.  I am carried out of my daily commute to a higher place.  

Isaiah 9:6 is read at midnight mass on Christmas eve.  For years, my family attended this mass. We would celebrate Christmas Eve dinner, "Jul Aften," with my grandparents, arriving home around 10 pm.  Gathered in my parent's living room, we would sit half dozing or quietly chatting until it was time to bundle up against the cold and go to church.  Inside, the lights were blazing and the organ and trumpets blaring. "Joy to the World" never sounds as perfect at any other time. 

Midnight mass seems to bring all kinds of people out of the woodwork. I have sat with people who brought their own sodas (maybe they were looking for a movie?), who were exchanging and unwrapping gifts during the service and the inevitable few who simply fall asleep.  I guess what matters is that they try.

I really can't wait until the day after Thanksgiving.  I will fill my house with music.

Six years

Right now I am sitting in my favorite chair, watching David listen to NPR in the kitchen. Then man wonders why it takes him an hour to wash eight dishes, but we both know that it is his unhealthy addiction to the sonorous newscasters on National Public Radio.  I am not a fan.  In my opinion, NPR's radio personalities all sound like they took an overdose of cold medicine and chased it with a glass of wine. 

When Bee was a newborn, David used to listen to NPR every night while he made dinner, full volume. The news discussion of the day would blare down the hall, through the dining room, into our little study where I was usually curled up on the couch with a sleeping, nursing, or sleeping/nursing baby.  

The talking was inescapable.  Hypnotized by the constant droning, I would eventually drift into the kitchen, baby in the crook of my arm, and listen to the news.  I secretly like to hear the news. Sometimes the stories are very interesting.  However, until the broadcasters begin to speak with Italian accents as opposed to California nasal, it is banned in the house.  

Since David knows my feelings about NPR, he very considerately wears headphones while he listens to the news.  Tethered to his computer by an extra long cord, he gracefully maneuvers to and fro, cautious lest his computer slide off the countertop.  (That would be the death blow to his poor laptop.  We've had it nearly our entire marriage.)

His computer was our computer before we decided that I needed my own for graduate school.  It was the first major purchase we made together, aside from a few items of furniture for our apartment.  The laptop has survived a road trip from Guatemala to Virginia, five international moves, more countries and overhead luggage compartments than it should have to.  David has meticulously maintained it, applying ram and external hard drives like an aging starlet injects Botox. 

David takes care of things.  He is a doer. He makes reservations, drives stick shifts, solves problems, reads maps.  I draw on his confidence, and admire his ability to tackle life head on. Even more tellingly, he takes care of me:  doing the dishes because he knows I hate scraping plates, taking Max for his "last call" walk of the night because it's cold and dark outside, and cutting Bee's fingernails because he knows I couldn't stand it if I accidentally nipped her skin and made her cry.  

In a little over a week, we will celebrate our sixth wedding anniversary.  We aren't planning anything special for the day; our vacation to the US was our anniversary and Christmas gift to each other.  Instead, I will take some time to reflect on how much we have grown up and grown together in these past six years.  So much.  I am so lucky to have him as my husband--dish washing deficiencies and all.


Sunday, November 23, 2008

We cannot live without books


Bee is long since asleep, so I am off to read (but hopefully not finish) mine.

the amazing cardboard box

We went to Ikea this morning to buy some containers to organize Bee's toys.  Her small play area in our apartment's main room is growing tentacles of toys that extend into the living room and dining room. I have to do something to fight against the clutter.  I need a few square feet of grown-up space.

Anyway, I always love going to Ikea, even though entire villages of people are usually there and Bee goes quite wild with her own child sized shopping cart.  We bought a bunch of stuff, more than we intended to purchase, including a set of star shaped Christmas lights that will look very pretty hanging in the front window at Christmas time.

We came back from our vacation with an entire suitcase filled with new toys and books, wonderful presents given to Bee for her birthday by family and friends.  She loves her new dolls and containers of Play-doh.  She was happy to come home to her play kitchen filled with realistic wooden food.  However, despite the embarrassing multitude of toy options available, at the moment, my little Princess only wants to play one game: "x-ray-der."  

Evidently the x-ray machine at the airport left a mighty impression on Miss Bee.  She now aspires to work for the transportation authority. When I realized that she was using our coffee table as an x-ray machine, I put a cardboard box, empty at both ends, on top for more x-ray realism.  She loves passing her shoes and teddy bear through the box and pretending she's at the airport.

Last night, after Bee had gone to sleep, I folded up the box and stowed it behind a piece of furniture.  First thing this morning, Bee frantically asked as to where the x-ray-der had gone.  I set it up again, and from her excitement you would have thought I had just given her the best present ever. 

So, when we have visitors to our apartment, we will just lie and say that decorating our living room with cardboard is something we saw in Better Homes and Gardens.  It's the latest ec0-innovation.  It's proof of my sweet daughter's vivid imagination.  It's the cheapest damn toy I never bought.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Twilight

I swore I wouldn't read those silly books about chaste vampires.  I mean, how absorbing could they possibly be, right?  After a recommendation from my dear friend Em, however, I decided to buy "just" the first one.  

I'm not usually so easily swayed, but it's because of Emily that I found Robert Jordan's "Wheel of Time" series and read Harry Potter.  I like everything about Emily, but especially her knack for finding me a good book.

Our shared taste in fiction, however, does not extend to Em's enthusiasm for war novels that have a lot of battle scenes and unrequited love, so I have to make sure her recommendations don't include a sad dead soldier in the final chapter.  I will read war stories from time to time but really, why do the soldiers always have to die at the end? Why couldn't they survive the war and go start a restaurant or something?  (Emily, my gift to you, "Three Day Road" by Joseph Boyden. Written on the front cover, "The most haunting story of war and loss since Birdsong.")

What I really love is a book that you want to stay up all night reading, where you pull the text close to your face, hold on to the edges of the book, and read for dear life. Both "Twilight" and "New Moon" made me do just that. I was reading last night until I could no longer prop my eyelids open. I read this evening in Bee's play kitchen while she fed her baby doll Play Doh. I was present, just not mentally!

I have the other two books in the series stacked on my nightstand and I am rationing them out. No more than one book per day. (My personal talents are few and far between but I can read very, very fast, especially when I am motivated to find out what happens next.)  I am going to be so sad when I finish Breaking Dawn.  On Sunday.  Hopefully not Saturday.


Thursday, November 20, 2008

"The sun poured in like butterscotch"


I saw rainbows twice while on vacation.  The photo above was taken from the balcony of our stateroom while on our Disney Cruise.  David and I were both excited and apprehensive about our trip.  We need not have been worried, as it was wonderful. The rainbow over the water is just one example of the magic of Disney.  They even control the weather!

The second time I saw a rainbow was on my last day at home.  Our flight was later that evening (little did I know that I would leave on Saturday and not arrive home until Monday morning) and both my Mom and I were feeling despondent at my and David's and Bee's imminent departure. So, we went and did what all good women do in the face of stress: we went shopping.  Bee was having her afternoon nap so we made our escape, just the two of us.  We were driving to the mall when a double rainbow appeared the the sky.  I'm not sure whether it was just a good shopping omen or a fitting end to a perfect vacation.

But really, of all the days that we were home, the very best day of vacation was the first full day. Waking up in my house, in my childhood bedroom, sitting at the kitchen table, jet-lagged at 5 am, drinking hot tea, eating scrambled eggs that my Mom cooked, my father wandering in with a cup of coffee in hand, Bee playing on the kitchen floor, David reading the paper, the sun rising, and the love of my family "stuck to all my senses."

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Take and eat

I was planning on going to the gym during my lunch hour today but decided I needed some fresh air instead.  I set off towards my favorite bakery, which is about 15 minutes away from my office.

Outside, the sun was shining, and while the air wasn't exactly fresh, it was invigorating to be out and about with the lunchtime rush.  I was wearing my favorite emerald coat, looking like a peacock in a flock of ravens. Black seems to be the operative color for winter wear. 

I was about a block away, deciding on my lunch, when I saw a beggar leaning up against the wall. His clothes were tattered, and he was leaning on crutches, waiting silently for someone to give him their spare change.  

As I walked toward him, a middle aged lady came in the opposite direction.  Without slowing her steps she handed him her lunch, from the bakery where I was headed.  Without acknowledging her presence or stepping away from the wall the man took the bread and immediately began to eat, hungrily.  I thought to myself, cynically, "Well, at least he won't want mine." 

Immediately, I filled with shame.  Is this how I love my neighbor as myself?.  Jesus walked among the poorest of the poor, not with selfish, flouncing girls like me. How could those thoughts have passed my mind? 

I worry that I have become cynical.  Where I live, begging is a pseudo-profession. People approach me on the street everyday and ask for money.  I always say no. I don't give alms.  Beggars have their turf and individual ailments to draw attention to themselves.  The young man with the grotesquely swollen leg sits halfway up the steps leading out of the metro. Directly across the sidewalk, the friendly looking elderly lady stands wearing an eye patch. Further down the street, an old wild haired man sitting on a bucket stares at the pavement. Outside my grocery store, there is usually a Roma woman cradling a lethargic child. Comparatively, I am so privileged. I should empty out my wallet, give my green coat away.

When we lived in Guatemala, we used to give the street children cereal out of our car windows.  It's different here. I see the same people every day. Should I give them a handout every day? Make their acquaintance? Bake them cookies? Offer my prayers?  

The beggar today shocked me with his hunger and brought me face to face with my own indifference.  His careworn face was that of Jesus. Blessed are the poor in spirit; for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Mommy Time

When David has to work late I try to do something special with Bee so she doesn't focus on missing her father. Tonight, after dinner we skipped Bee's nightly bath and played beauty salon. Afterward, we had a "princess and teddy bear" story time.

The magic formula:

One Limoges plate fit for a princess.
Two butter cookies.
Two teddy bears.
Two new storybooks, "Corduroy" and "Bear Snores On."

Never mind that my comforter is now covered in crumbs, that her royal highness wasn't content with just two stories, and that she didn't want to go to bed afterward.  The drama of being two years old is continuous, but the happy little moments spent snuggled together reading a good book are the ones that matter.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Home again

I have a sink full of dishes, a bedroom full of six overflowing suitcases to unpack, a jet-lagged toddler singing crazily to her stuffed animals in her crib, a bad head cold, a brand new computer to hook into my wireless network and absolutely nothing to complain about.

I had a wonderful vacation and have so much to write about here. 

I will have to tackle it a little bit at a time, because in just three weeks we celebrated Bee's birthday, visited a multitude of relatives, took endless shopping trips to Target and Tysons Corner Mall, drove to Charlottesville for the day, spent a night without Bee (the first) in Washington VA, met Cinderella at Disney World, and found paradise on a Disney cruise. Our return trip back to Eastern Europe could form the plot of an Indiana Jones movie.  There is so much to savor and bemoan in the retelling.  

Right now though, I have a daughter who needs my immediate attention.  More tomorrow.

Right now though, I am off to put my nest in order and then off to bed.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Vay-cay-shun!

It's the big one.  Three weeks of American bliss. 

Tomorrow is Bee's second birthday and we're taking her on an airplane ride home to see her grandparents!

I am off to finish packing.

Posting will probably be light, or nil.

See you in a few weeks.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

A second method for stopping a tantrum

So tonight, Bee was running toward my bedroom yelling because she wanted to keep reading Richard Scarry's "Busytown" and did NOT want to sit down and have dinner. She didn't know it, although I did know it, that really the reason she was running and screaming was that dinner was late and she was hungry and tired.  

Poor David was cooking dinner and the fuse for the stove blew. Once this happens, it usually takes a few hours for it to cool down and work properly again. I don't know why this happens. Maybe it is our special Eastern European wiring.  Ever resourceful, David lit the stove with the gas and a match and carried on boiling the pasta. 

Anyway. . . the fuse box was irritated it decided to make all the electricity cut out.  Suddenly, the apartment became completely dark.  Bee, who seconds before had been speeding her way toward my bedroom, changes directions and starts bumbling back through the pitch black hallway, screaming even louder.  I groped through the darkness at toddler height until I found Bee.  Her tantrum stopped.  A blackout is dramatic method, but it worked.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Smile on my face

--My VIP visitor departing the country this afternoon.  

--Bee's request for kisses all around when David and I arrived home from work today, but particularly when she ordered, "Daddy, kiss Mommy mouth."  Great idea, let's do that again!

--Watching Bee slurp peanut noodles at dinner.

--Curling up in my bed under a warm woolen blanket that I bought once upon a time in Guatemala.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Guilty Pleasures

Magazine subscriptions. I think I subscribe to eight different magazines. 

The guiltiest pleasure of the lot is US Weekly.  US Weekly magazine is a dumbed down version of People magazine, which is already pretty dumb in its own right. 

I like to compare US Weekly to a McDonald's value meal--you get the same thing every time, it's cheap, tastes great, although it makes you feel a little bit sick when you're done.  Since I've all but given up Mc Donalds (don't watch Supersize me, just don't) US Weekly is my weekly junk fix.

Despite the lingering bad taste, I keep going back, week after week. I think it is the brightly colored pictures and gossip-y language written on a third grade reading level.  After a long day at the office, I don't want to puzzle out some postmodern novel, I just want to retreat to some lowbrow entertainment.  

I just got home a few minutes ago and it is well after 9 pm--the very rare work night out that I do my best to avoid.  (There is no dinner, meeting, or reception that is more important to me than after work cuddle time and Play Doh creation with Bee. But as it was my event, I had to attend.)  

I'm tired and off to bed with Oprah magazine.  David will probably be reading the Economist. Hopefully his intellectual pursuits will balance out my mental laziness.

Monday, October 20, 2008

All the live long day

Highlight of my day: sitting on the floor of Bee's room, playing cars and trains together.  I built her a long bridge with cardboard blocks.  We balanced her train and cars on top. We drove them underneath.  We landed helicopters and airplanes. We strategically positioned wooden trees and houses around the bridge. We sang nursery rhymes about trains.  We played until dinner was ready.  Just me and my Bee.  One of the purest joys of parenthood is the chance to be a kid again.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Test kitchen

Maybe it's the sudden drop in temperature. Maybe it's the fact that we're leaving for our vacation next weekend and won't be cooking for ourselves for three weeks.  Maybe it's because cooking is a form of stress management for me.  Whatever it is, David and I have been cooking all weekend long.

Here are todays hits and misses:

Pumpkin waffles with maple cream cheese syrup
Grade: B
I think this was a recipe from Mark Bittman's "How to Cook Everything Vegetarian," but I'm not certain because I was sleeping when David and Bee whipped these up.  Bottom line, you couldn't really taste the pumpkin and the syrup was a bit congealed.  However, I love waffles in all their guises.

Pumpkin bread (with the pumpkin I stewed yesterday)
Grade: A+
I used my Mom's recipe and it never disappoints. The fresh pumpkin gave the bread a great color and lighter texture than the canned variety.

Applesauce
Grade: C-
It tastes wonderful, despite the fact that I initially added chili powder instead of cinnamon (a quick rinse in cold water saved the apples), but I didn't peel enough apples and cooked them a bit too long.  Yield-less than one cup.

Chipotle roasted pumpkin seeds
Grade: A
I soaked the seeds in saltwater overnight and then tossed them with olive oil (dry off the water first) and chipotle popcorn seasoning.  Bake on a cookie sheet in a 300 degree  for 40 minutes, stirring the seeds every 10 minutes or so so they don't stick.  

Later today:

Sugar cookies (with halloween cookie cutters). I'd like to decorate them with royal icing but we'll see whether I have any energy left.

Vegetable stock (all the veggies are ready to go) and then Sunday's soup.  We still need to roast the red peppers.  

I'd also like to clean the house, start packing (beachwear), make playdoh, and go for a jog.  This is overly ambitious, I know, but this is why weekends ought to be three days instead of just two.


Saturday, October 18, 2008

P is for possibilities

Three minutes until my pumpkin is finished roasting.  Now I just have to decide what I want to make with the puree.  It probably weighed about two kilograms whole, but I'm not sure how many cups that will translate into.

David is lobbying for pumpkin pie. I would like to make some mini loaves of pumpkin bread (freeze the extras to eat on rushed weekday mornings).  We also have two unopened containers of cream cheese in the fridge, so maybe pumpkin cake or cookies with cream cheese frosting? Or even cheese cake?  

Friday, October 17, 2008

Kittens

There is only one thing cuter than a black and white kitten with a tiny pink nose--A black and white mama cat with five black and white kittens with tiny pink noses, all curled up together in a comfy pile of leaves, fast asleep.

The building next to my office has a number of tenants, but none so cute as their youngest feline residents. They are street cats--skittish, shy, moving in the shadows, and most likely doomed to a short, trash-can scrounging life. They have grown old enough now that it would be more and more difficult for someone to adopt them.  

But, when they're all curled up together, with their paws and tails so intertwined its hard to tell where one kitten stops and the other begins, passerby stop and press their faces up to the fence, just to watch them--in all their adorable kitten-ness.  

No cats for me, though. I just watch and sigh.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Small victories

As Bee approaches turning two years old, she has become more and more dramatic.  She got angry tonight when David had to go out and run an, erm, errand.  (We didn't have sesame oil for our peanut noodles recipe, so we retreated from the kitchen and resorted to ordering a pizza.  I don't know whether it's a good thing or a bad thing that there is a take away pizza place less than two blocks from our apartment.)  

So, David was off picking up the pizza and Bee was angrily throwing my tennis shoes and crying that she wanted to go with her Daddy.  

I think Bee's tantrum stemmed from the fact that she didn't realize how much she had missed her father until he returned.  Tonight, she turned dinner from its usual 15 minute sit down to 45 minutes, perched on her father's lap, taking miniscule bites of her increasingly soggy pizza crust until we finally made her go take a bath.  

But I was talking about the tantrum. So she's yelling and carrying on and I'm too worn out from my marathon day at work to talk her down from the cliff.  My usual strategies are either to hold her and sympathize with her problem, without giving in, or to ignore the bad behavior. Really bad behavior, like hitting, earns an instant time out, but I try to use them sparingly.  All the yelling was getting on my nerves so I said, "Bee, I am going to go read some stories in your room." I walked away, without a word, went to her room, and began reading "Going on a Bear Hunt," which is one of Bee's top ten favorite books.  

Immediately, I hear, "NO BOOKS!" bellowed from down the hall. I pretend I didn't hear her and persist with the story, and she caves--stopped crying, came running even, climbed up on the couch and sat nicely with me while I read.  

Score one for parentdom.  

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Athens

I have been wanting to post, and I want to write a long post, but my intentions have fallen through these past couple days as David has been out of town and I have been increasing my (already enormous) respect for single parents everywhere. 

On Monday evening, I flew back to the wilds of Eastern Europe with Bee. David stayed on in Athens for a conference.  Flying with an almost two year old is an adventure and I was very nervous about how we would manage alone. I shouldn't have been so worried. We only had a few dramatic moments (wanting to go on the bus that was going out to the airplane flying to Sofia, and she was so angry at me I almost considered letting her go for a second) but for the most part, she was surprisingly angelic. 

Once onboard the plane, she chanted over and over "airplane, big noise" because the plane to Athens had been a turboprop, and it was very loud.  We were both relieved to fly back on a jet. Neither of us enjoyed the airplane food, but we had fun playing with her "Cheerios" book and singing quietly to each other.  The only perilous part of our journey was the cab ride from the airport to our apartment. Our driver was from the Congo and basically only spoke French.  He had a GPS navigator that gave him directions in French. I don't speak French so I was praying the entire way that he wouldn't get lost. Fortunately, we made it home without incident. 

But, Athens . . . was wonderful minus the motorcycles. They swarm like mosquitos, driving on the sidewalks and plazas and in between the lanes of cars.  There was so much to see. Unfortunately, I forgot the memory card to my camera so I couldn't take any pictures. To compensate, I really soaked up the scenery and tried to create as many mental snapshots as I could.  

The weather was warm, the Athenians were so friendly, and the food was so, Greek (either fried or drenched in honey or both).  Athens gives off an amazing sense of history.  You will round a street corner and run into an excavation of an ancient road, or a pair of several thousand year old graves.  There is an aura of permanence. The city has been there, has been Athens, for thousands of years and it is reassuring to know that it will continue to be Athens for many thousands more.  

Our hotel, the Baby Grand, was delightful, and I wouldn't hesitate to recommend it to anyone. Bee fell asleep in the taxi ride from the airport and David carried her, car seat and all, over to reception. Upon check in, they told us that they had upgraded our room to a gorgeous suite and that it would be ready in 30 minutes. 

David and I curled up in the very eclectic bar and lounge with our magazines and some tea. We had the whole place to ourselves and we relaxed while Bee napped in her car seat.  After Bee woke up and we were settled in our room, we headed out to find the city, with no particular direction in mind.  David inevitably does this to me.  Whenever we go on vacation, he will sent off, a rudderless ship, wandering the wild sea of streets.  Irritatingly, some internal compass of his always manages to find the main tourist attractions. I remember during a trip to Copenhagen, we wandered through the city and he found the "little mermaid statue" within an hour.  It's a talent I guess.  His other talent is ignoring me while I trot behind pleading with him to look at a map or ask for directions.

So, as a result, within 15 minutes we had arrived at the Plaka, the touristy cafe and shopping district.  The afternoon sun blazed in a bright blue sky.  Suddenly, framed by a pair of buildings, the Acropolis and Parthenon, bone white against the sky, came into view--a mental snapshot I will keep forever.  How can that ancient ruin still dominate a modern city?

We ate an early dinner at a Taverna and ordered enough Greek food to cover the table.  We ate outside and enjoyed watching the crowds of people going by-- Greek Boy Scouts, Scandinavian tourists, women with headscarves, and African men selling "designer" sunglasses.  On the way back to the hotel, by complete coincidence, we ran into a friend attending the same conference as David. We plunged back into the Plaka and found another cafe where we sat and drank a bottle of Greek red wine.  I was defeated by a chocolate souffle. I didn't ever think something could be too chocolate-y, but this was.

The next morning, David navigated us to Starbucks (my vice, I know) and afterward we met up with a friend of mine who is working in Athens, and her husband. Her husband has a masters in Greek archeology, so we had our own private tour guide to take us to the Acropolis.  The highlight of the tour was standing next to the Parthenon and looking at the city spread out before us.  My friend's husband points out the spot where St. Paul is said to have preached to and converted the Athenians.  It gave me chills.

After the Acropolis, we all had lunch at another Greek restaurant where we savored such delicacies as fava beans, little fish fried whole and oh, the calamari. Just incredible.  We went back to the hotel for Bee's nap. When she (and David) woke up, we headed out again and walked around and around, mostly aimlessly, through a shuttered city (Sunday afternoon is not the time for touring or shopping). We ended up back at our hotel with no idea of what to do for dinner. We ended up eating dinner in the hotel restaurant, and, while the breakfasts were delicious (each morning I had a pastry and bowl of Greek yogurt with honey, walnuts, and jam) dinner tasted like someone's failed leftovers.  

Monday morning was the last morning of our trip and we did a little souvenir shopping (olive oil soap and a silver owl pendant for me, a worry bead bracelet for Bee, and a number of small gifts for my work colleagues). We checked out of our hotel and taxied over to the Hilton, where David was staying for the conference. We had lunch in the hotel, which always seems like something out of a novel to me, something from back when people embarked a Grand Tour. Now it's just grandly expensive.  

Bee fell asleep in the taxi on the way to the airport, which really worked out well. We arrived early and poor David carried Bee in her car seat (with her in it it's about 50 pounds all together).  After I checked in we maneuvered up to the second floor where they had a McDonalds and McCafe (a Starbucks wannabee).  Despite the music and loud conversations going on all around us, it was a nice quiet time for David and I.  So much of our day-to-day lives are taken up by parenting, meaningful adult conversation is usually squeezed in in the few minutes before falling asleep.  

So, with our peacefully sleeping daughter wedged into the booth with us, we sat and talked about our hopes and the future. As we talked. the noise around us dulled and we just enjoyed being together.  Too often, I get caught up in the concept of vacationing--the going and seeing and doing and buying--that I miss out on the concept of vacations as restorative, as a time for simply being. Well, of all the possible places, in a crowded McDonalds, we were.

Friday, October 10, 2008

I hate a problem I can't solve

At the risk of stoking the little tornado of seething indignation that is churning in my stomach: Our evening flight to Athens was cancelled due to a strike.  We have been rebooked to fly late tomorrow morning, which shortens our long weekend considerably.  

On the bright side, I am looking forward to meeting up with friends there on Sunday and touring the Parthenon.

David and I are off to watch a strange sci-fi series that he ordered from Netflix. I think it's called Red Dwarf?  We shall see. . .

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Off to Greece

We are leaving work an hour early tomorrow to catch our flight to Athens, Greece!  It should be a very excited weekend.  I'm embarrassed to admit that I haven't really planned for this trip other than booking a hotel room.  

I know we'll want to see the Parthenon.  Other than that, we'll probably walk around the historic districts, find interesting little restaurants, and find a park where Bee can run and play.  

I'm nervous about how the flight will go tomorrow, because we won't arrive until past Bee's bedtime (I'm bracing for a major meltdown at some point, just hopefully not while we're on the plane).  It will be a good practice flight before we head back to the US at the end of the month.

Well, I am off to pack and spend some time with David as he is back from his ports visit.  

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

They do the wrap

You know you're in Europe when:

At the first hint of frost in the air, every woman under the age of 40 is suddenly sporting an artfully wrapped cotton scarf around her neck. The longer and more colorful, the better.  Some are looped round and round and then loosely tied to tuck the ends under. Others are dashingly draped over the shoulder.  

Whenever I try to artfully arrange a scarf, it manages to come loose and is flapping about within minutes.  Clearly I am not European.  I also walk to work carrying a lunch bag.  This is another dead giveaway and major fashion faux pas.  

But I was talking about scarves. . . The scarf is usually worn over a skinny jacket, paired with tight jeans and flat shoes (strangely enough, Keds seem to be making a comeback with teenagers here).   

European women are chic.  They look like they have an expresso for breakfast and no immediate plans for lunch. As pedestrians, they walk aggressively and quickly.  There is a daily "on-foot" rush hour in my neighborhood.  Keep up or be run over. Despite the rush, they don't seem to be going to work.  Perhaps to university, or to a dingy cafe to smoke cigarettes and talk about philosophy.  

In any case, I like to watch them as I hurry to my American job, scarf swinging, lunch bag bouncing with each step, unfashionably enjoying life here in the wilds of Eastern Europe.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Sunrise, sunrise

The highlight of my day today was first thing this morning. Bee woke up just before 6 am and greeted me with, "Mommy, nudle."  

"Nudle" is Bee's attempt at pronouncing "cuddle" and in my early morning grogginess I was more than happy to oblige. I trundled her back to my bed and the two of us curled up and went back to sleep.  

David was very exasperated at his two girls lazing in bed on a Monday morning, of all days. He left us sleeping and went to the kitchen and began cooking breakfast. A little while later, I could smell pancakes cooking. 

Once breakfast was ready, David came back to the bedroom and rousted us out of bed and we all ate whole wheat apple pancakes and celebrated Max's fifth birthday (a little early this year, since he goes to the kennel tonight for ten days).  He had his own pancake with a candle and he sat proudly while we sang "Happy Birthday."  

After we sang,  Max wasn't sure what to do about the candle, as it impeded his immediate access to the pancake.  He started lunging toward it (I think he planned to eat around it) and for a few seconds was in immediate danger of singeing his fur.  I blew it out quickly and he ate his treat in a few quick gulps. 

It is quiet family mornings like today that sustain me during the hectic work week.  The pancakes were an extra bonus.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Weekends are too short

Well, it's 7 pm, David is giving Bee a bath and I have "Flight of the Bumblebee" running through my head. Despite cleaning up earlier this morning, there has been another toy eruption in the living room. I need to attack that and then go make up the bed.  

My one autumn housekeeping task for the weekend was accomplished: flipping the mattress, washing the mattress cover, bedding, and putting the duvet in the dryer to fluff.  Between the princess birthday party yesterday and a friend's 40th birthday party all afternoon today I didn't manage to do much else. 

My cold (avian influenza/walking pneumonia/plague) is still going strong.  So, I'm off to clean up, put Bee to bed and then take up residence on the couch with a magazine and box of tissues.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Sugar

We just came back from a neighbor's birthday party.  Miss M. turned three years old and celebrated with a pink princess party complete with a children's entertainer, face painting, balloon animals, loud music, a pinata, and lots and lots of children.  

Bee oscillated between being totally overwhelmed and wildly enjoying herself. She didn't want to have her face painted but braved having a flower painted on her arm.  She really, really, liked the cake. 

David is taking Bee and Max to the park and I am headed off to clean up around our apartment. It looks as though a party was thrown in here too, but it is only the vestiges of a toddler entertaining herself.  

I am looking forward to a quiet evening.

Friday, October 3, 2008

Nursemaid's elbow

This morning we were all getting ready for work, as usual, when Bee dislocated her elbow.  Bee was seated on the floor and she stretched her arms up toward David to be picked up. He reached down and picked her up by her arms (something neither of us generally do but every parent has done once in a while) when Bee's elbow goes "POP!" and she starts to cry.  

At first I thought okay, she has strained her arm a little bit and she'll be okay in a minute, this is typical toddler drama.  Ten minutes go by and Bee is still crying every time she moves her arm and I am thinking it's broken and using every ounce of self control not to freak out and start screaming at David.  I tell him to call our pediatrician. He immediately calls and explains what happened. Our pediatrician says, "This is nursemaid's elbow, I know what to do, I'll be right over."  

Let me just say that we are so lucky to have an American pediatrician, also living in Eastern Europe, who is our neighbor within walking distance. It is a blessing beyond belief.  Bee was calmer and in less pain, but every time she sees David she points at him with her good arm and says, in tones laced with venom, "Daddy did it."

I pull Bee into my lap and we read stories, endless board books, while we wait.  She is distracted, but David is even more distracted because when he placed the call on his Crackberry he saw an email congratulating him on his promotion.   The long awaited promotion lists for our jobs had been released. We were soothing Bee and trying to surreptitiously confirm that he, and I, had been promoted.  The nervous excitement was really too much.  

After about 20 minutes, the pediatrician arrives. I create a distraction while she firmly grips Bee's arm and with a twist and an audible "pop," her elbow slides back into place.  A nursemaid's elbow is a partial dislocation where a tendon slides over the bone. It is not as serious as an entire dislocation.  Amazingly, within minutes Bee was using her arm and no longer in pain.  

My stomach still twists when I think about this morning.  The evening was not much better. David was at a reception, so I came home alone.  I went out walking with Max and Bee in the stroller when a little boy about her age runs over and pokes Bee in the eye. Completely unprovoked.  Bee started screaming, less in pain but more in pure outrage. By the time we had got back to the apartment, her mood had moved beyond arsenic hour blackness into a poison all its own. 

There is a short flight of steps leading up to the door of my apartment. In order to get everyone inside, I have to take Bee out of the stroller, bring her and Max to the top of the steps and then go down and bring up the stroller. She was having none of it.  Screaming and doing the "worm" (going limp and refusing to move). 

I finally got everyone up and into the apartment. Bee was screaming at the top of her lungs, slung over my shoulder like an accident victim.  Max was not enjoying the noise and was refusing to follow me inside. I could actually see his Labrador brain calculating if he should make a break for it and go find a quieter family, preferably one with no family members under the age of 5.  I got everyone in, managed dinner, bath time (although the water was brown tonight) and bed time.  Since we all have colds no one will sleep well tonight. 

For now, though, it is quiet. David is home. I have a glass of pink champagne.  And yes, I got promoted. 


Thursday, October 2, 2008

Hold me tight

David and I were walking home from the metro tonight, through our neighborhood park. It is a daily chance for the two of us to steal some private conversation. We can talk about our day while not trying to feed Max, make dinner and keep Miss Bee from wreaking kitchen havoc as she is wont to do. 

So today we were strolling arm in arm through the park, past my favorite group of rose bushes, the ones with Creamsicle orange roses as big as saucers, when, 15 meters ahead, I spot Bee and her babysitter. The babysitter saw us and pointed Bee in our direction. She took off running towards us, chubby legs pounding the sidewalk path shouting "Mommy! Mommy!"  

All the ladies on the bench turned their heads to look.  I was waving and hurrying toward her. I squatted down and held my arms open. She raced into them and hugged me tight saying, "Mommy here!" 

I savored hugging my baby for a few seconds longer than necessary, my face buried in her shiny hair.  For a brief moment the people on the benches, the park, the whole world vanished and it was just me and my daughter.  

I know that in a few years there will be drama and slamming doors and pre-teen angst.  Even now, parenthood challenges me every day.  

Life with a toddler is often like trying to keep a spilled glass of milk from pouring off the table and onto the floor.  You're flailing about trying to contain imminent disaster. The milk is everywhere, it's dripping, you're mopping it up and exasperated.  And then, some days, you have life with a toddler and spilled glasses of milk.  

But the spills and the messes and the tears--they all disappear when your daughter runs toward you, calling your name, arms wide open.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

They aren't little trees. . .

Bee likes broccoli.  

Who has ever heard of a toddler wanting to eat broccoli?  Her exact words tonight while eating it were, "Yum yum, body good." (As in the "Milk, it does a body good" slogan David taught her.)  

We were both aghast.  I didn't like broccoli as a child and still do not particularly care for it. 

I rewarded my adventurous eater with healthy chocolate goldfish crackers for dessert.

October brings

so many wonderful things:

--Our trip to Greece.
--Our vacation at home in the United States.
--Bee's 2nd birthday. 
--Sweater weather.
--31 excuses for hot chocolate.
--Red, yellow, orange and brown leaves.
--Pumpkins and butternut squash for baking.
--Halloween.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Lions and tigers and kitty cats

Since we don't let Bee watch TV or videos, occasionally we need some distraction during that witching hour between arriving home from work and eating dinner.  When all else fails, I have resorted to showing her photos of animals on the Internet. She picks the animal, I Google it for photographs.

My favorite one this evening: a male lion in full roar, jaws agape. I asked Bee, "What do you think that animal is doing?"  

She immediately said, "Laughing!"  

Muffling my own laughter, I answered, "After a fashion, Bee, yes he is. . .but it's more like he's roaring."


Monday, September 29, 2008

Home sick. Homesick.

Well my cold got the best of me and I decided not to be one of those people who show up at work saying, "Oh my gosh I am so sick!"  And then they proceed to infect everyone in the office.  (Thanks people.)  

I went back to bed after David left for work and slept until almost 11, which is quite a record for me.  I think it has been about three years since I have slept that late.  

I woke up and was doing a pretty good job hiding out in my room, but came out in search of food about 30 minutes too early.  Bee likes her babysitter but she loves me and it was "all Mama time" once she remembered that I was still at home and not at work. 

Putting her down for her nap was a nightmare.  I can put her down for a nap. The babysitter can put her down for a nap. However, evidently the combination of the two of us there was not working routine-wise.  Two hours later. . . 

Poor Bee. I think she is getting sick too. How can she not?  I have been washing my hands and trying not to kiss her but still, we're inevitably in close contact.  

So being at home and having a whole day, or most of a day, to myself sounds really nice in theory, and it was, but now I am wishing David home. It's too weird being here with the babysitter here. I am not a good patient. 

This morning, I was able to pull myself back into a deep sleep by concentrating very closely on my memory of the beach house that my parents have rented for us a couple times in the Outer Banks, NC.  It was a delicious daydream, thinking about the salty air, slightly worn beach house, and early sunrise runs on the beach with Max and Bee in her jogging stroller.  The wonderful feeling of being on vacation and being free to relax.  Going bargain hunting at the outlets with my Mom and my sister.  Eating fried seafood anything.  It's so nice to escape from the reality of being sick, Eastern Europe and the weekly grind, for a time.  


Saturday, September 27, 2008

Slow

I am in my bathrobe and pajamas contemplating the big pile of dishes David has left me. He and Bee are off at church. I declined to join them. My cold has arrived and I am a bit under the weather, so to speak. 

Sleeping in this morning helped a little bit. So will the pot of ginger tea that is steeping right now.  

I still really want to go to Starbucks, my weekly indulgence, later this morning. We shall see if I feel up to it. We definitely have to go out to the market.  

My job while the family is at church is to plan the meals this week.  

Later today:  
--Laundry.
--Maybe a slow walk with Max in order to get some fresh air.
--Resting so I can go to work tomorrow.

 

How sweet it is. . .

I woke up at 2 AM this morning, thinking that it was 5 AM and time to get up and ready for our day trip (which was long, yet interesting and just a bit overwhelming).  The thing that I did notice at 2 AM was that my throat really hurt.  There has been a horrible cold virus going around my office and I fear that I may be the latest victim.  

I have been drinking hot tea and bread with honey and went to the pharmacist and got some strange medicinal cough drops.  There is no luxury in being sick once you're a parent, so I am doing everything in my power to not be sick, to just "say no" to virulent viruses.

David, the wonderful man that he is, not only drove me 7 hours round trip to a cheese festival today, he also made me butternut squash soup for dinner. From scratch.  With homemade vegetable stock.  And he cleaned up.  

It was so much work, and all because he wanted to make me feel better. The result was pure love in a bowl, garnished with warm chunks of squash, onion and rice.  How sweet it is to be loved by him.

Friday, September 26, 2008

Cheese festival

Just a short post because I have a long list of things to do tonight before I try to go to bed early. We are leaving the city at 7 am tomorrow (the only way to beat the traffic) to drive into the mountains for a shepherd's festival. This is the time of year when the shepherds bring their sheep down from their high mountain pastures and celebrate the end of summer. There will be local cheese and plum brandy, as well as a competition for the most beautiful livestock. It will be a nice break from city life, and Bee is very excited to go see the animals.  

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

The longest month

This week. This month.  They both seem to be moving by at a snail's pace.  David and I have had, between the two of us, an after work event every night this week.  We have been alternating coming home and taking care of Bee. 

 The reception I went to fortunately ended just after 6 pm so I am home early-ish, and off to go have some family time before we both crash for the night.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Craving

I could never grow tired of ice cream.  

My favorite is mint chocolate chip, the bright green kind, mind you, covered, and I mean covered with rainbow sprinkles.  (I used to call them jimmies but most people north of the Mason-Dixon line have no idea what that means, so, sprinkles it is.) For the perfect ice cream archetype, mint chocolate chip ice cream-sprinkles combination should be precariously firmly stacked on top of a sugar cone (the brittle pseudo waffle cones with the sharp point at the bottom).  

In Europe, mint chocolate chip ice cream is a weak imitation of the American kind. The chips are slivers, the ice cream is a pale mint color as opposed to bright green dye. It's disappointing so I usually order something else.  However, you know what Europe has that America does not? Gelato!  Think ice cream that doesn't melt as quickly with a more intense flavor.  Hazelnut gelato is nothing short of a revelation.

In Germany, where my sister lives, everything is expensive with the exception of the lowly ice cream cone.  One scoop still only costs one Euro.  David and I visited her in May. The last morning of our vacation I spent a perfect thirty minutes sitting in the sunny town square, eating a chocolate ice cream cone and reading American Vogue, while Bee napped in her stroller.  That was heaven.  

Tonight I had vanilla frozen yogurt topped with a few pieces of extra dark (85%) chocolate.  My plan was to melt the chocolate and pour it over the yogurt, but the chocolate was too dark to melt. So, I broke it into pieces and enjoyed it as a topping.  Ice cream is one treat I could never give up.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Like a child without her favorite stuffed animal

Well, posting will be light for a while while I mourn the apparent loss of my once perky laptop computer.  We are trying to erase the disc and rewrite the hard drive but unfortunately, it seems like it's dead forever.  

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Taking back my house

I am sitting in the living room, enjoying a few minutes to myself during our busy Sunday.  Max is curled up on the rug in a patch of sunlight, fast asleep, looking very angelic.  Bee just went down for her nap and David is lying down for a few minutes.  

I am listening to the hum of the refrigerator (it's actually making a bit of a wheezing noise which makes me fear that it too is going to need to be replaced), the whir of the washing machine, and the whoosh of cars going down the street.  The construction workers across the street are, thankfully, not working today.

On my list for this afternoon:

--Dusting, vacuuming, and laundry
--Putting flannel sheets on our bed (the temperatures are definitely down in the 40s at night)
--Finding our Halloween decorations
--Putting together Bee's "Autumn shelf" in her play kitchen
--Sorting through Bee's clothing and pulling out pieces she has outgrown
--Making the meal plan for the week (I bought lots of vegetables at the market, now I need to decide what to do with them)
--Going for a family run
--Talking to my parents on iChat


Saturday, September 20, 2008

The menu tonight

Appetizers:  
Bruschetta with tomato, roasted garlic, parmesan, and a drizzle of olive oil
Antipasto: green olives, sun dried tomatoes, and pickled red peppers 
(Bee loved the bruschetta and green olives.)

Dinner:
Salad with sun-dried tomato dressing
Vegetarian pizza
White pizza with spinach

Dessert:
Betty Crocker's one spoon chocolate cake
(We have been making this for company a lot recently, as it is very tasty. You can prepare it in 10 minutes and then it only bakes for a half an hour.)

Verdict:  everything was very good, but pizza from scratch for a crowd is really too much effort

After hours

While I do not like cleaning up after a big dinner party (today I think we managed to use every dish in our kitchen) I do enjoy the time spent cleaning with my husband--chatting in the kitchen about how the evening went, exchanging small bits of news and gossip, and enjoying one last glass of wine (him) or cup of decaf tea (me).  

Sharing the chore together makes it less miserable, and as parents usually home with our toddler daughter, it's almost like a mini date (almost, but not quite--the whole counter wiping thing really isn't very romantic).

Friday, September 19, 2008

Highlight of my day

Usually my work colleagues will speak English with me, even though I speak their foreign language fairly well. But this afternoon, I was the only American in the room and after a few minutes, they dropped English.  We were laughing and joking when I realized that I was following along with no problem, laughing with the rest of them, and speaking their language without hesitating over potential grammar mistakes.  After months of studying until my eyes hurt, stressing over the genitive and dative cases, and worrying about learning every cultural nuance and reference, it finally clicked--if only for a few brief minutes.  

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Cooking essentials

David and I collect kitchen gadgets, the more ridiculous and useless, the better. I read every Williams Sonoma catalog from cover to covert.  I could spend hours browsing at Sur La Table. I love cookbooks, cooking magazines, baking blogs, and anything to do with fresh, seasonal ingredients.  Cooking is not only a hobby, it is also a nexus of family bonding, and a means for entertaining friends.

One of the most used items in our kitchen is our set of Le Creuset silicone prep bowls.  We use them for measuring ingredients, during meal preparation, and as snack bowls for Bee.  They are easy to clean and a their bright colors are a cheerful addition to my kitchen.  

Almost every night, I fill the largest bowl (1 cup measure) with frozen yogurt or vanilla ice cream for dessert. It provides perfect portion control, which means I can load up the ice cream with extra toppings!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Essentials

This will be brief as my computer is undergoing a heart transplant right now. My new auxiliary hard drive finally works with the double USB cords (it didn't draw enough power to run it off my laptop before).  I am making a backup copy of my computer and then will be moving a ton of video off, so that I can free up enough space to hopefully make it run normally again. 

It has been raining almost all day and as I was splashing to the market after work this evening I was thanking my lucky stars that I had worn my Dansko clogs.  They are truly a case of "function over form", but despite their less than aesthetic appearance, Dansko has made the perfect shoe for wading across flooded sidewalks and over rain-filled potholes. Plus, I can walk really, really fast in them. I got my loaf of bread home before it became soggy.  

At home, we all ate chicken (hear that, Mom, we ate meat!) soup that our babysitter prepared for us.  It was an easy dinner, and now there is nothing left to do tonight but hope my computer gains new life and fall asleep listening to the rain.


Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Thunderstruck

Last night, David and I were about to fall asleep when we were both scared witless by a monstrous crack of thunder.  Just one. I don't know why.  It had been raining on and off all day, this wasn't a thunderstorm's rumbling approach. One lonely thunderhead must have been floating by and encountered some extreme shift in the atmosphere.  It sounded as though a portion of the sky had exploded.  

"BOOM!"  David and I both lay motionless, shocked, silent.  Then I said, "Bee is totally going to wake up." David agreed. Sure enough, a few seconds later I heard her pitiful cry of, "Mommeeeeeee."  

I ran to her room and scooped a very shaken Bee into my arms.  She lay with me on the couch for some time, shocked awake. I whispered reassurances. I could feel her eyelashes fluttering on my face as she lay there silently, blinking into the darkness, trying to comprehend what had occurred.  She didn't want to go back to sleep, and I don't blame her. Finally David had to come in and help put her back to bed.  

How do you explain thunder to a small child? You can't.  You can just say, "It was a big noise, but it's gone now, honey."  You can try to protect your child from many scary realities, but thunderstorms are, unfortunately, unavoidable.  

Monday, September 15, 2008

Into Great Silence

I am not a movie person, for the most part. I like big, fat, adventure-filled novels.  I can count on two hands the number of movies I have seen in my life that really moved my spirit.  

David and I just finished watching "Into Great Silence," a nearly three hour documentary about the Grande Chartreuse Cistercian monastery--a hermit-like monastic order of the strictest observance.  

The monks pray the liturgy of the hours, including a three hour middle of the night prayer session, which takes place every night, complete basic chores, and study in their cells.  Every movement, every chore, everything they do gives glory to God; their very lives become an act of ceaseless prayer.  They are silent and separate, except when joined in prayer as a community, at the once weekly communal meal, and once weekly walking excursion outdoors.

We watched the movie on three separate nights. Every scene was beautiful and made me want to do more to strengthen my own prayer life. I highly recommend it.  

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Food weekend

I am having a few minutes by myself in the apartment. Max and I just got back from a family run. David and Bee (in her jogging stroller) are going one extra "fast" lap.  Max is the slowest runner in the family.  He likes to be pulled along by his leash like a fat toy boat.  

The apartment is sparkling and still after my nearly 2 hours of clean-up from this morning's Sunday brunch for eight.  

On the menu:
Baked egg casserole with vegetables
Skillet hash browns
Dimply plum cake (it looked beautiful but I think the cake part was a bit dry; recipe found here)
Pumpkin donuts (the recipe was from this month's Cuisine At Home; we were deep fried donut virgins until this morning and they were a revelation)
Blueberry muffins
Bread and cheese board (including a delicious rustic Camembert) 

Our friend Ana (one of Bee's favorite people) brought tomatoes stuffed with eggplant as well as a tray of sweets from a local bakery

There was plenty of food, to say the least!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Preschool at home

Bee is getting to be of the age where she has the interest, and the attention span, for simple projects and learning.  

I have never been the kind of parent who is interested in Baby Einstein DVDs or Leap Pad pre-computer technology.  For one thing, I generally don't buy anything made in China, and for another thing, they feel like a parenting cop-out.  

On the other hand, I don't sit Bee down to make her practice words or counting or review alphabet flash cards either. Her learning is entirely existential.  We count to ten as we walk up the stairs, notice the colors of her Playdoh, and discuss the different shapes in her beloved "trucks" book (yep, Bee has a tomboy streak, she loves to play Legos and trains with her daddy).  In the kitchen, she has a particular talent for stirring muffin batter and crumbling goat cheese (not at the same time, though).

Bee is fascinated by nature.  She and her babysitter go to the park every day and they usually bring something home with them.  The windowsill in her play area is covered with bags of acorns, assorted smooth stones, and a few colorful leaves.  My idea is to create a nature corner or shelf, where I could display her treasure along with a few seasonal books.  I wish, so much, that we had a local library full of books on pumpkins and autumn and craft ideas.  It is so much easier at home.  There is a saying here, "he who never tries, never succeeds," so I think that I will start small, and see whether it catches Bee's interest.